A prayer when I am sad

Master of the World, I am sad. I do not always know how to explain why. There are days when everything looks grey, when it is hard for me to get up, when things that once made me happy do not touch me. I function, I do what needs doing, but inside it is heavy.

And sometimes I am also angry at myself for this sadness. I tell myself I am not allowed to be like this, that I have no reason, that others suffer more. And then I become sad twice over: once for what I feel, and once for feeling it.

I am not asking You to take the sadness away all at once. I am asking for one point of light. One small thing today that will remind me there is still life in me: a conversation with a friend, air outside, one line that touches me. Let me hold on to it and not let go.

And let me not measure myself by the hard days. Even on such a day I am the same person, and there is good in me that has not vanished.

And let me remember that You are near even now, even when I do not feel You.

And if this sadness is too heavy for me to carry alone, give me the courage to tell someone I trust and to ask for help, without shame.

And let me believe that these days are not the end. That even after a grey season joy can return, and that You are waiting for me there, on the other side of the sadness.