A prayer to begin again after a fall

Master of the World, I fell. Again. And I know this moment: the shame, the voice that says I have already tried too many times, that there is no point in starting again, that I am probably not capable.

I want to begin again. Not tomorrow, not from the start of the month, not when a fitting moment comes. Now. From the exact point where I am, with everything that happened.

Let me not drag the whole past with me into this beginning. I know what I did and I do not deny it, but I do not want it to dictate to me who I am today. Let me see this day as a fresh page.

And let me forgive myself. Not lightly, as though nothing happened, but the way one forgives a person who truly wants to change, so that he can get up.

And do not let me begin too big. I do not need to make enormous promises that I will break in a week. Let me choose one step that I can take today, and take it.

And if I fall again, and I know it may happen, let me remember this prayer and return to it. Let me begin again, and again, as many times as it takes, without giving up on myself.

And let me rejoice in this beginning. Not to begin in sadness and heaviness, but like one who has received a second chance. For every day is a beginning, and at every moment it is possible to return to You.